Nothing aggravates me more than straight/bi-curious chicks who crave attention and immediately flock towards a female who is ACTUALLY interested in women to get said attention. It's kind of an epidemic.
If I had a dollar for every girl who pretended to be interested in me while in public, I'd be filthy rich.
People get drunk and do stupid shit, that's a given. But honestly, its NOT okay for anyone to play with the emotions of another person by letting them think you like them. I don't think it would be so bad if it weren't for the alcohol.
When people start drinking, they suddenly become the outgoing, secure person they think they want to be. "Liquid courage" will only get a person so far, and more likely than not, there will be some inevitable regrets intertwined in the events to follow.
I am not a play toy. I'm not a birthday gift to you from your boyfriend. I'm not here to keep you distracted while you and your boyfriend are "on a break". I'm definitely not trying to be your drunk hook up, either. In fact, I'm just a regular person, like you, who wants to be accepted for who I am and have a little fun while I'm at it. The "I'm confused" excuse may have been appropriate at age 18, but as an adult, you should know that people are not play things. Feelings are real regardless of your intentions. I'm interested in genuine people and genuine interactions. I'm not someone you can just pretend to be interested in because I have the (metaphorical) balls to live a lifestyle that not everyone is comfortable expressing themselves. I'm human, and more importantly, I'm a woman.
I have encountered a decent amount of women who say they're interested in other women. Unfortunately, when it comes down to it, a larger percentage than I'd like to admit end up in one of two scenarios: 1. This woman is trying to piss off an ex boyfriend or 2. She is trying impress the current man in her life (and what better way to do that than by hooking up with a hot chick, right? Go fuck yourself). I would assume that said woman would claim this interest because, either things have gotten to a point where she can't bring herself to be with another man (so let's try a woman!), or because she thinks its something that a man will find sexy. THIS IS NOT FUCKING OKAY, GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD, LADIES!!!
I know that there are women out there who are genuinely into being with women. I also know that it takes time and exploration to be comfortable enough with one's self to be able to act on homosexual desires. I really, truly know and understand these things. I was once young, experimenting and insecure in my own sexuality, but I can't help but become infuriated by the amount of insincere "attention hook-ups" that I've been suckered into being a part of or have encountered around me. I find myself often disappointed, but never very surprised.
I know that sooner or later, I will find my perfect lady who knows how to make me feel like I'm worth something to someone else. Until then, these bitches all need to take a step back, look in the mirror, and ask themselves "what am I really doing right now? Is this something I'm seriously interested in?". Because guess what? When all is said and done, I know my worth as an individual, and I know that I deserve better. I've got a decent head on my shoulders, genuine intentions, and I know how to treat another person with the respect and dignity they deserve. Some stupid chick who wouldn't know a good thing if it hit her in the face will never break the spirit I've got within me. And not to mention, you can bet your sweet little ass that when you realize what you've done, I won't be there to clean up the mess.
-Jackie Soriano
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